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Friday, January 21st, 2005
8:34 pm	brendan, it is cold in washington hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah (pause to catch breath) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah (stop to change shorts) ha. i am back via the elctronic super highway. yup. -ali (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
10:26 pm	hey, brendan- my untitled poem !brendan! -the poem- A thunderous silence speaking in tongues in every smile she was. Is still, yes, still as eternity in every passing dream. Night was never not quite as dark with her as it would seem. Yet, nights were as dreams become with passing passing 'because', And she could never ride my dream for darkness was not her light. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
1:16 am	no crisTAN yOu arE INsainE (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:00 am	Case study on human weakness So, i'm doing what i stated above. I am going to create a religion and try to get people to convert. If they give in to their weak religious convictions, i win. so here is my mock religion... Shivak "the life giver, the nurturer"- is a femail god similar to the virgin mary or the New Testimate God. The other deity is named Necktar "the destroyer, the Creator"- is like a Bodisatva or the spirit in action, he would be akin to the old Testimate God. Both gods represent charicteristics inherant in humanity, and ultimately, are inside each person. A follower of Shivanta (as it is now called) believes and prays to the God inside of them. They don't look to the cosmos for answers- they belive that the answers are allready inside them- they must remeber or come to understand them. The gods represent the ways a person can act- Necktar is generally the baser and more human emotions, while Shivak is the more spiritually inclined man, however, a priest of Shivantaism is not a talking head- he is a mover and a shaker, a true profet... well... thats what i got so far. I need to forge some holy texts and write a few parables of Shivantaism...hehe. I am sure that there are a few morally and spiritually deprived people who would be willing to sumbit themsevles to Shivak the nurturer. Yes, oh yes! i want to canvass the campus and form a cult! ahhhhaaa! CULT WORSHIP! I ONLY NEED COOLADE AND DRAINO! Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: CULT WORSHIP! HAHAHA (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 14th, 2004
12:02 am	there is no rubber room I am no longer limited by the confines of sanity. This weekend I am going to hit a wall. Before i do, i have to realize that there is no wall. I am alone with misha this weekend- everyone gone- oh dear god. Danger! danger mr. roberts! Truth: My mom is my valentine. False: there is one truth. advice: don't take this so hard Current Mood: mildly amused Current Music: enbe arperhe (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
11:02 pm	ergh, this weekend, ugh the best way to avoid responsibilities is to claim that you allready have too many of them. Does anyone else think this weekend is going to blow. If i were a girl i would spend it eating fig newtons and watching sleepeless in seattle. Damn. Well, i suppose there's no harm in doing that anyway. Hey, B- don't worry i'll take care of the oomre ouye ya (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:00 pm	Out of mercy, let a Mystery lead let it lead us into storms Where the light Where the lightening bolts are born Out of mercy, let a Mystery turn turn our faces to the sky then let the light then let the lightening strike the I Out of mercy Out of mercy Out of mercy So, when I'm within you... Right into a storm where the light where the lightening bolts are born Out of mercy, let a Mystery turn turn our faces to the sky then let the light then let the lightening strike the I Out of mercy Out of mercy Out of mercy This Mystery turns us into smoke Weighless weight This Mystery turns us into smoke Gateless gate This Mystery turns us into smoke Stateless state (Comment on this)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
9:45 pm	Oceanography let us live most happily, possessing nothing; let us feed on joy, like the radiant gods. Dhammapada 15.4 (Comment on this)
1:35 am	iza me hurtday b I am now a year older than i was a year ago. Yippie! Jesus wasn't a very good Jew. He trashed the temple and preached to all the preachers. Muhammad was marked for death because he hated the corruption inherant in the religions of his time. Emerson even said that every religion that is false was once true... that'll be true about christianity one day too. I've been upset lately because i've forgotten where i came from. I've felt like i wasn't really LIVING here, i was just getting by. But i have lived so much in nineteen years, i've done so many things. Not living? that's some shit- that is the only thing i have done, every moment, in every way. I am the places and the people that got me this far. I am never alone because i carry them with me everywhere i go. Current Mood: naked Current Music: the ben harper cd's brendan made me. yup they taste good (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
8:21 pm	eif ou were a porno star... If you were a Porno Star- what would your name be? I am now to be called SIR BUST A LOT Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: WHAT THE HELL DOES QUIXOTIC MEAN? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:39 pm	hrumph. it is friday. is life a joke we play on ourselves to simply understand better the joke that life has become? Who would judge? I would. I would cast the first stone, yet, there are no stones to cast. We live in a wasteland of beauty and fragile ignorance. The cost of our flaming paridise is our eternal and everlasting soul. It is the only thing that you will ever truly own. stop thinking and feel. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
3:00 pm	ah ha i do have a woopie I have decided. Yes. I am moving at long last. I may have found a place, and if not i will very soon. My long awaited day of liberation is almost at hand. Have fun my children. I'll be back soon. I'm just taking a break from reality. Current Mood: it's time for killin' Current Music: something gay-like brendan's guitar playing (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
2:04 pm	My cat woke me up humping my arm I'm in San Fransisco for the weekend: seeing my dad, doing work that needs doing around the house, and, naturally, getting humped by my cat. Oh well, it was interesting at least. If any of you see Anna, please ask her to call me. I need to get a ride home on Monday- if i have to take another bus i'll go up a clock tower with my gun (my theoretical gun ie. my index finger and thumb). (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 2nd, 2004
4:51 pm	i am loosing my mind if a chick married a duck would its kid be named chuck or dick? Why did i sit up last night until dawn thinking about it? I miss the city. If the porter kids invaded kresge i would be the first outside killing hippies. Suddenly annexation does not sound so bad. Their sharpened sticks vs my AR 34 semi-automatic rifle. hmmm. if i were Oedipus i would have built a time machine and fought in the second world war. i have a lot of ideas in my head about what im going to do next year, even what i'll do after this quarter. I've been debating moving to a JC and taking night classes. From there i could take care of my dad and still further my education. What is really important? My big secret has been that i want to go to Seminary in Washington DC, maybe, i'll get a degree from there and try and get into Georgetown. I am tired of people telling me to stick it out. I'm tired of this age group. I'm tired of the college experience. The best education is life, and, right now i am not really getting it the way i feel like i am supposed to. I enjoy santa cruz because it is beautiful and freindly. But, i feel like i'm getting soft, i'm getting bored with life- an anomely that i've not really every experienced before. Oh well, my fingers hurt from playing guitar and i need to food myself soon. Hizzelp. Current Mood: intoxicated with existance (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 1st, 2004
1:23 pm	satan straightens his hair I was awoken this morning my a man standing in the kitchen, he had two brushes curled into his hair and was blowdrying his mop. The brushes looked like horns. It was the devil me thinks. I met him once in North Platte Nebraska. It was my girlfriend at the time. She had two brushes in her hair too. I met a guy smoking crack in a public restroom yesterday. Pray tell us how it happened precious. His name was Petrov. Maybe he was the devil too. Good. I like nakedness. Current Mood: amused Current Music: the spiderman soundtrack (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 31st, 2004
1:16 am	Do people ever get tired of drinking? This weekend everyone was partying their ass off. I am in a bad mood, so, i'm going to brood. What did you want to be when you were a little kid? Something noble, honorable? Do you think you're five year old self would be proud of you if he saw you drunk and beligerant? Would he understand that this is the time in our lives when we are supposed to do that- be intoxicated, have fun, have meaningless sex? I am tired of it- of my opium smoking oomrates and seeing people stumble around stupid drunk. I've done it too many times and it is simply an escape- a way out that i sholdn't need. Thant nobody should need. Current Mood: beligerant (Comment on this)
Friday, January 30th, 2004
3:16 pm	how do you spell asparagus? How do you spell that? I am bothered by this. I am also bothered by an email i received last night from my ex-girlfriend. I quote: "I never really think about you... our romantic escapade should have been much shorter and less dramatic than it was. but, hooray! cheers... I think i care about you now and i want to know how you have been... i have met someone so much better and that is why i am writing this email" - mind you she left me after she went to college for a twenty two year old guy. We dated for three years and she told me she loved me...hhrumph... i suppose that means less today than it did when chaucer or shakespeare said it. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 29th, 2004
1:00 pm	argh- i hate teleslug! Ali wants to drop an impossible class for an easy one...however... it seems that the gods have alligned themselves against me! The class that i want to take happens to overlap with a stupid section time by ten minutes-argh! I don't want to see the damn college preceptor about my problem-shassbutt! Ali will deal with this problem on monday- for now their is laundry and fooding myself to deal with. Ali like fooding. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 26th, 2004
1:19 am	premature enlightenment A statue teached me this one poem tonight. he was a statue of st. joseph- my homeboy. The crickets sang, and set the sun, and workmen finished, one by one, their seam the day upon. The low grass loaded with dew the twilight as strangers do with hat in hand, proper and new, to stay as if, to go. A vastness as a neighbor came, a wisdom without face or name, a peace, as hemespheres at home and so the night became. -emily dick ejoy brothas thanks joe. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
6:00 pm	Something happened to me on the toilet well not really. I just wanted to add how quickly things seem to change- love, emotion, life, cultures. But, what really changes, i think, is not the world- it is simply me. Myself. Every day we know better who we are, even if we don't know it just yet. So why is life so serious? If it is really as important as we make it out to be, then i would say that life is too important to be taken seriously. So welaxx babies, iz all unda con-troll. Youz pilotin' da shizzle, and donna eva forgit't love to my people Current Mood: out'a prison and not go'n back Current Music: tom petty and yo mama (Comment on this)